Waves (Written by Calen)

Well, it looks like the girls in our family are definitely moving towards making this a collaborative project. We hope you enjoy my oldest daughter’s debut piece about how she meets her struggles head on and finds peace in the comfort of the waves!

I’m sure many people reading this post have seen a wave in the ocean unraveling onto the shore, but have you ever studied it? It’s actually quite majestic. The water pulls in unison towards the horizon of what seems to be the endless ocean, it draws upwards to heaven, and just as it meets its peak it crashes into itself. I have carried myself to the beach many times just to stand in awe of it. The ocean waves have always brought me a sense of peace. I’ve had many moments in this life that have drawn me to the beach to lay all of my cares and worries at its shore as I cry out to God in prayer. I’m 26 years old and my life has been my kind of beautiful story. I’ve had moments in life where everything was moving in unison, much like the waves. My husband proposed to me in 2013 and we married in 2014. I got into my nursing school of choice and graduated with my BSN, and gratefully had a solid nursing job before I walked across that stage to receive my diploma. My life was beginning to peak when my husband and I finally started talking about expanding our little family beyond just us. We had a positive pregnancy test and cried together (happy tears of course). Our hearts were overjoyed as we shared the news with our family and began to picture our new life as 3 instead of 2; however, my life crashed down all around me, engulfing my soul in pure darkness after we miscarried in January 2017. (There is absolutely nothing more isolating than this– Post soon to come). Just like the waves in the ocean, I pulled myself together. The pieces of my heart that seemed to be shattered all around me drew themselves back together, centering itself where it belonged within me. My life once more peaked when we had our baby girl in November 2017. Of course bringing a baby into the world comes with its own ups and downs, but my life has taught me something very important. Even when life seems to be going perfectly, there are going to be crashes or moments where you feel like you’re being engulfed by the world around you- and that’s okay. How you view the peaks and crashes are up to you. I choose to view my life as an ocean wave- it may crash, but it recovers and tries again. All the while, looking beautiful as it continues.

-CC